I am very sorry for you loss and for the loss of a lovely and talented person. As a parent, I cannot imagine what you are going through although it is a fear that all parents carry with them until we close our eyes ourselves. I hope that you can find some solace in the memories you have of your daughter.
Far too young. Such a terrible, tragic waste. As a parent I can't even begin to imagine how painful this must be. Know that you are in our thoughts Carla and that, as you can see here, your daughter touched many lives in a positive way during her (too few) years on this Earth. RIP Laura.
The truth is that being with a poisonous person in a relationship destroys your personality and your inner spirit.The results vary on how strong of a personality you are.I think the guy here beat the poor girl to death.I was a victim of a poisonous girl,you can't imagine what treachery means.
This has been a horrible loss for you and yet you've had the strength to try to help others through this. You show a lot of strength.
My family has also been devastated by suicide. My father commited suicide over 10 years ago. I don't know if these would relate to your situation of not, but there are some of the thoughts that have come to me over that time in regards to dealing with it myself.
- I never will understand why he did it.
- I resolved to not think the "what if I'd done this or that" to stop him. I can't change the past and these thoughts are not constructive for me.
- It was completely out of the blue for me. My family kept any warning signs of his prior actions away from me.
- I still can't have pictures of him out. It's too painfull for me, but I realize that that's ok for me.
- I've done things to intentionally block out the specifics for me. I don't remember the date he died and it's easier if I don't.
I don't know what else to tell you except that I feel bad that you've had to go through this.
Touching words and my thoughts are with you for whatever that is worth. I had a friend who committed suicide at age 19 and I've wondered ever since if I should have seen it coming or what I could have done differently to have prevented it. The answer is of course, unknown.
Sounds like she was a great person and like others have said, best to remember her for how she lived and all she accomplished in so short a time.
I fondly remember Laura, or Taera. I was a moderator here for a short time, and I guess you could say she was our supervisor. She was fantastic, and though we had few conversations she always radiated an intense love for the MMORPG community. Though I was sad to see her go here, there was nobody who was more deserving of becoming a community manager at CCP. I remember knowing for certain that she'd go far in the world of MMORPGs, and this was a great first step.
Even though I did not know her very well, her death really struck me. I am so very sorry for your loss, even after all these years. Time does not heal all wounds.
In the years following her death I've maybe twice googled her name to see if she is remembered and to read some of the poetry she had made. I was glad to see the MMORPG community had not forgotten, and even after many years threads had popped up extolling her fondness of the MMORPG community.
Is it 5 years already? I remember reading the news back then. I didn't knew her back then, had to google her as well. But it didn't matter, what mattered was that a young person had died too soon and that is always sad news. It was amazing how many people where touched by it though. I saw the article here and when googling it all the posts and reactions, she sure must have meant a lot to many people, something a parent can be very proud off.
When reading upon her and what she accomplished it made it even more sad. Just having your dream job and then this happened. I remember back then that i read something about a bad reaction on something that caused her passing. Now reading this i can understand that back then you maybe didn't really want to tell, or maybe didn't even know yet.
Such a horrible thing love can be. In parts i can related to your daughter. When i was early 20 games also dominated my life. I worked as a volunteer on a game forum in the Netherlands and had the best time of my life. Getting to go to events every now and then and getting more and more in love with the whole scene behind gaming. At that time i as well fall in love, with a girl that played on my feelings. Years of being in love and never get it answered and having to see how she went with a friend of us. Very painful and showing how much love can control your life. I had a good life and yet i felt miserable often cause of her.
I hope people who are in the same situation can learn from this. To look at it from a distance. Love is a great thing but there is so much more in life. Try to enjoy the things you have. I never got lucky to find love so far in my life and I'm 30 now. I have decided to put it beside me, if it happens to me great, if not, there is so much more to life for. I never made it into the game scene beside my few years on the forums. But i do have many friends and i did got my other dream job in the movies (about to lose it now but that is a whole different story).
We all do things as they suddenly pop up in our heads, or walk around with things for a while. All i can say is that if you ever find yourself in a position where you feel like life is just not worth it anymore, talk to people. For me it helped to talk with a friend about how i felt, i had no plans to end my life or anything just talking about why i felt so miserable. If you don't dare to talk with your parents then talk with a friend or find professional help. No one will think you are crazy, no one will think bad about you and no one will find you a coward. Many depressions are just a part in your life, sooner or later something will happen that makes you glad you are alive. It can look bad now but believe me, in 20 years you look back at it and glad you decided not to do certain steps cause now you have your dream job, or that house you like so much, perhaps found the one true love for yourself, etc.
Goodluck with the book, I hope it helps to make her passing a little less painful. It will never replace her and close it all off but i hope it helps for you to find peace with it all.
Or this is a place for the community that knew her to share how the feel and mmorpg.com is helping us share our feelings. I sure hope her family reads this and see how much she impacted everyone here.
2. To remind us to cherish the ones we love while they are here; and perhaps keep a closer eye on them. This article prompted me to make a phone call.
The comments about being opportunist or capitalistic are in poor taste and I hope they're moderated out.
Luckily, i don't need you to like me to enjoy video games. -nariusseldon. In F2P I think it's more a case of the game's trying to play the player's. -laserit
Ouch... Loss doesn't seem to cover it; loss to a family, loss to friends, and loss to a community. Impacting so many is quite the legacy, it's just a legacy that could have waited.
Remember, girls... no man is worthy that especially if he's like that. He won't suffer but important people who really loves you will suffer.
Do not narrow this to just a "man". It goes both ways. I know someone who's ex recently committed suicide because she broke up with him. She is devastated as well as all those who knew him closely.
As hard as it is to hear this I must wonder how much attention was even paid to this young woman when she was going through all of this. This is where guidance, family and community comes in. I do not mean mmo community. That is not a support structure. It is a distraction from those close who should be helping. If you have not learned this yet you will later in life.
Games can be great but every single time you ignore/turn down socializing with friends and family who contribute physically to your life and the real community around you, you become more distant from them. Do not even begin to tell me otherwise.
Remember, girls... no man is worthy that especially if he's like that. He won't suffer but important people who really loves you will suffer.
Do not narrow this to just a "man". It goes both ways. I know someone who's ex recently committed suicide because she broke up with him. She is devastated as well as all those who knew him closely.
As hard as it is to hear this I must wonder how much attention was even paid to this young woman when she was going through all of this. This is where guidance, family and community comes in. I do not mean mmo community. That is not a support structure. It is a distraction from those close who should be helping. If you have not learned this yet you will later in life.
Games can be great but every single time you ignore/turn down socializing with friends and family who contribute physically to your life and the real community around you, you become more distant from them. Do not even begin to tell me otherwise.
Sure, but it's not so simple. You speak about community or society in real life as something we can use as therapy but in real life, depending on who our real people are around us, it can be not therapeutic or a healthy experience with certain person or group of people.
and she mentions that in the paragraph about her tough environment.
it seems having good friends and family that can be used as therapy is something that is not so common in the world. Maybe that is the sad truth we haven't realized
anyways, condolences
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I am very sorry for you loss and for the loss of a lovely and talented person. As a parent, I cannot imagine what you are going through although it is a fear that all parents carry with them until we close our eyes ourselves. I hope that you can find some solace in the memories you have of your daughter.
This has been a horrible loss for you and yet you've had the strength to try to help others through this. You show a lot of strength.
My family has also been devastated by suicide. My father commited suicide over 10 years ago. I don't know if these would relate to your situation of not, but there are some of the thoughts that have come to me over that time in regards to dealing with it myself.
- I never will understand why he did it.
- I resolved to not think the "what if I'd done this or that" to stop him. I can't change the past and these thoughts are not constructive for me.
- It was completely out of the blue for me. My family kept any warning signs of his prior actions away from me.
- I still can't have pictures of him out. It's too painfull for me, but I realize that that's ok for me.
- I've done things to intentionally block out the specifics for me. I don't remember the date he died and it's easier if I don't.
I don't know what else to tell you except that I feel bad that you've had to go through this.
Touching words and my thoughts are with you for whatever that is worth. I had a friend who committed suicide at age 19 and I've wondered ever since if I should have seen it coming or what I could have done differently to have prevented it. The answer is of course, unknown.
Sounds like she was a great person and like others have said, best to remember her for how she lived and all she accomplished in so short a time.
I fondly remember Laura, or Taera. I was a moderator here for a short time, and I guess you could say she was our supervisor. She was fantastic, and though we had few conversations she always radiated an intense love for the MMORPG community. Though I was sad to see her go here, there was nobody who was more deserving of becoming a community manager at CCP. I remember knowing for certain that she'd go far in the world of MMORPGs, and this was a great first step.
Even though I did not know her very well, her death really struck me. I am so very sorry for your loss, even after all these years. Time does not heal all wounds.
In the years following her death I've maybe twice googled her name to see if she is remembered and to read some of the poetry she had made. I was glad to see the MMORPG community had not forgotten, and even after many years threads had popped up extolling her fondness of the MMORPG community.
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Is it 5 years already? I remember reading the news back then. I didn't knew her back then, had to google her as well. But it didn't matter, what mattered was that a young person had died too soon and that is always sad news. It was amazing how many people where touched by it though. I saw the article here and when googling it all the posts and reactions, she sure must have meant a lot to many people, something a parent can be very proud off.
When reading upon her and what she accomplished it made it even more sad. Just having your dream job and then this happened. I remember back then that i read something about a bad reaction on something that caused her passing. Now reading this i can understand that back then you maybe didn't really want to tell, or maybe didn't even know yet.
Such a horrible thing love can be. In parts i can related to your daughter. When i was early 20 games also dominated my life. I worked as a volunteer on a game forum in the Netherlands and had the best time of my life. Getting to go to events every now and then and getting more and more in love with the whole scene behind gaming. At that time i as well fall in love, with a girl that played on my feelings. Years of being in love and never get it answered
and having to see how she went with a friend of us. Very painful and showing how much love can control your life. I had a good life and yet i felt miserable often cause of her.
I hope people who are in the same situation can learn from this. To look at it from a distance. Love is a great thing but there is so much more in life. Try to enjoy the things you have. I never got lucky to find love so far in my life and I'm 30 now. I have decided to put it beside me, if it happens to me great, if not, there is so much more to life for. I never made it into the game scene beside my few years on the forums. But i do have many friends and i did got my other dream job in the movies (about to lose it now but that is a whole different story).
We all do things as they suddenly pop up in our heads, or walk around with things for a while. All i can say is that if you ever find yourself in a position where you feel like life is just not worth it anymore, talk to people. For me it helped to talk with a friend about how i felt, i had no plans to end my life or anything just talking about why i felt so miserable. If you don't dare to talk with your parents then talk with a friend or find professional help. No one will think you are crazy, no one will think bad about you and no one will find you a coward. Many depressions are just a part in your life, sooner or later something will happen that makes you glad you are alive. It can look bad now but believe me, in 20 years you look back at it and glad you decided not to do certain steps cause now you have your dream job, or that house you like so much, perhaps found the one true love for yourself, etc.
Goodluck with the book, I hope it helps to make her passing a little less painful. It will never replace her and close it all off but i hope it helps for you to find peace with it all.
Very sad to lose a person like that...
Remember, girls... no man is worthy that especially if he's like that. He won't suffer but important people who really loves you will suffer.
Or this is a place for the community that knew her to share how the feel and mmorpg.com is helping us share our feelings. I sure hope her family reads this and see how much she impacted everyone here.
I'm sure this book is for two reasons:
1. Because, pain shared is pain halved.
2. To remind us to cherish the ones we love while they are here; and perhaps keep a closer eye on them. This article prompted me to make a phone call.
The comments about being opportunist or capitalistic are in poor taste and I hope they're moderated out.
Luckily, i don't need you to like me to enjoy video games. -nariusseldon.
In F2P I think it's more a case of the game's trying to play the player's. -laserit
I remember her. I will remember her.
My condolences.
So sad.I remember her well,,,,,Reminder that everyone online is a real person.....
You have my sympathy and prayers..
Aloha Mr Hand !
Do not narrow this to just a "man". It goes both ways. I know someone who's ex recently committed suicide because she broke up with him. She is devastated as well as all those who knew him closely.
As hard as it is to hear this I must wonder how much attention was even paid to this young woman when she was going through all of this. This is where guidance, family and community comes in. I do not mean mmo community. That is not a support structure. It is a distraction from those close who should be helping. If you have not learned this yet you will later in life.
Games can be great but every single time you ignore/turn down socializing with friends and family who contribute physically to your life and the real community around you, you become more distant from them. Do not even begin to tell me otherwise.
You stay sassy!
You stay sassy!
Sure, but it's not so simple. You speak about community or society in real life as something we can use as therapy but in real life, depending on who our real people are around us, it can be not therapeutic or a healthy experience with certain person or group of people.
and she mentions that in the paragraph about her tough environment.
it seems having good friends and family that can be used as therapy is something that is not so common in the world. Maybe that is the sad truth we haven't realized
anyways, condolences
Write bad things that are done to you in sand, but write the good things that happen to you on a piece of marble